Sunday, January 16, 2011

Significance.

Significance- noun
the quality of being worthy of attention; importance 


Do you ever get that feeling where you feel like your life amounts to nothing?


Being on holidays for several months really highlights how little your life has going for it. This weekend was pretty amazing, i got to spend it with my amazing boyfriend and it was filled with stuff to do. Now, when I'm on my own, all I have to keep me occupied is youtube and facebook.


I feel so lazy, I mean I even cleaned my room... and for me, thats a HUGE thing.


I kinda wish I was interested in sport or getting fit, then I could totally be doing stuff right now. Instead, I'm lounging around typing onto a blog that nobody reads :P.


I need to find some purpose to bring worthiness into my life. Now that I'm not studying and my job is giving me next to no shifts, all I can really do is socialise. Which is hard when you live so far away from your friends.


Oh well, such is life, I hope everyone had an awesome weekend, and yeah :).


Sincerely, EnigmaticBoy.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Love.

Love- Noun
Undefinable


Possibly the only word in the english dictionary that is truly undefinable.


Sure, there may be attempts, but have you ever noticed how each one differs? If you asked your friends their definition of love, I guarantee each would be different in some way, shape or form.


Is love the want to constantly see your partner?


To be excited when you see them?


To be able to gaze into their eyes and just know?


Love, is what you make it.


Complicated, easy? It's really up to you.


Where do I stand? Good question.


Love is scary, dangerous, volatile.


Some say you just know when you're in love, I disagree.


Sincerely, EnigmaticBoy.

Enigmatic.

Enigmatic- adjective
difficult to interpret or understand; mysterious.
That is how I would choose to describe myself. At a glance, I come across sweet and innocent, quiet, fragile. If only they knew.
I prefer to keep my cards close to my chest, not let anyone in, but as I have recently found out that is not always possible.
Having another person in your life, a partner for example, forces you to drop your guard, let down all your defences. All that is left is your heart, open for the taking.
How do you know who you can trust? How do you overcome this feeling of helplessness? 
All you can do is follow your heart, which is hard for a 19 year old boy studying science. I listen to the facts written down on a piece of paper. Make decisions that I can control. When you bring love into the equation all that is stripped away. 
If you continue to read my blog, you will be let into my mysterious world, find out my secrets and enjoy the craziness that is me.
Sincerely, EnigmaticBoy.